Expectations

For some reason, I was thinking about the word 'expectations' yesterday. Right now, my expectations are to find a job.

Another Interview!
I had a telephone interview this morning and we scheduled an in-person interview for tomorrow. So that's 2 interviews this week and one last week. I'm thinking they all went well, but I am especially interested in the job I interviewed with on Tuesday. It's a far commute, but that's not really a bad thing, except when gas is hovering around $3/gallon. I drove 40 miles one way when I lived in Florida and it was great! I got to go to so many new and different bars and restaurants and beaches. I've heard most in the Atl know their way too and from work. I knew of one woman who had spent 15 years in Atlanta and never visited Piedmont Park. That's a shame. People don't get to other areas in Atl because they don't have to. I never go to Marietta, because I don't have too. I really don't want to either, I used to live over there and can't say I miss anything.

The Workout
I started back at the gym (that I've been a member of for over a year, but haven't used) yesterday. I want to start slow, so I just did some cardio and some arms. Today (or the next time I go) I'll concentrate on the torso/legs. I didn't want to kill myself on the first day, which is pretty easy to do. You start on the machines at a low weight, do a dozen reps then decide that you can do a heavier weight. So you do a dozen reps at the higher weight, and decide you could do another dozen reps. You do maybe 6 reps and realize what a mistake you've made, but you've only got 6 more, so somehow you finish all the reps and move to the next machine. Later that day, you're arms feel kinda wobbly, and a bit sore. The next morning, you can barely pick up your coffee cup, and by the next day, you can't move. No, I didn't do that to myself, I took it easy, probably too easy. My arms are a little stiff today, but nothing I can't live with. I just want to keep this up for 2 weeks. I can't seem to have any consistancy in my life, so I'm taking Baby Steps.

Expectations
My expectation now is to become employed. God knows, I'm ready to start spending money like I had a job! I need/want so many new things (new gym shoes, new haircut, new clothes, new attitude...)

I remember Back In The Day, having a discussion with one of my boyfriends about how expectations ruin a relationship. They do, if you don't have the same expectations. He said you should have no expectations. But you do. Even if you don't want to get married, the guys expect to get laid, and the girls expect what? Friendship? Companionship? I've been in lots of 'relationships' where there were no expectations. And guess what? Nothing ever became of these relationships, we had a good time for awhile, but they/I moved on. But maybe I did have expectations, didn't recognize it and pushed these guys away. Who knows? It's all ancient history anyway. It's only important now, because I never expected growing old alone.

Wow, I need to take a Happy Pill. I've been spending WAY too much time alone.

More to come...
As things happen, I'll be posting. Thanks for taking the time to read. You're opinions are welcome but if you have to start calling me names, don't bother, I won't read them. As my Dad says 'Opinions are like a**holes, everyone has one.'