Same Old Same Old

Don't know how much longer I can keep this blogging up. I have nothing to talk about. It's the same old same old every day, logon to the computer, check the job listings, find new job sites, try to find some networking spots, blah, blah, blah....

Cuatro de Mayo
Yesterday wasn't a good day. I had a headache, either from eye strain from the day before, (I really must get better lighting in the dining room!) or my blood pressure is up. I don't do well with pain, and it wasn't a bad headache, just annoying. So by the end of the day, I wasn't much fun to be around. I thought about going to the SL*T Hash, but I wasn't up for anything but being miserable.

Stages
Remember the 5 Stages of Dying, a widely accepted theory on what one goes thru when dealing with a fatal illness by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross? (I remember this from Sociology 101, along with Mazlo's Hierarchy of Needs and Buckminster Fuller's Geodesic dome. Why some things stick with you, I'll never know.) There are stages in dealing with unemployment, also, so I've read. And I'm still in one of the first stages, isolation. I'm not real keen on socializing right now. For whatever reason, newly unemployed go thru this, feelings of frustration, rejection, low self-esteem, all that crap. In my case, it's frustration and confusion with a large helping of MidLife Crisis, this time for real. I've been talking about having a Mid Life Crisis since my mid-30's, but now that I am in Mid Life, it's real. Most people do the divorce thing, but since I can't go there, I have to accept that my short-comings, life-style, hobbies and habits are my own doing, no one else is at fault. Maybe that makes me a stronger person, realizing no one else is responsible for my life. There's got to be a silver lining to all this crap...

More to come...Maybe
As things happen, I'll be posting. Thanks for taking the time to read. You're opinions are welcome but if you have to start calling me names, don't bother, I won't read them. As my Dad says 'Opinions are like a**holes, everyone has one.'