Deep Thoughts

Isn't that a title for a Saturday Night Live skit at some time? I had a terrible case of insomnia last night. I woke up about 1AM and just couldn't get back into a deep sleep. I turned on the TV and watched for a while, and then I tossed and turned for awhile. I did some light sleeping as I'm not completely useless today, but I probably will be tired after lunch. It's amazing all the crap that goes thru your mind when you can't sleep:

Comtemplating mortality
My kitty, Misty was sleeping next to me. She's dying, but here she was, all curled up in a warm, purring ball. Just a few months ago she was fine. When it's your time, it's your time, I guess. Is there anything I could have done to prevent this? Who knows? I don't usually take my pets to the vet but once a year, or if they are having problems, but I haven't had a lot of money to spend on the vet this past year. Although if there were problems, I would have taken them without question, so I don't have any quilt for that, but still, is there anything I could have done?

Fixing work issues
So what do I do here at work? My boss can't seem to 'assign' anything but small projects, one at a time, so I have LOTS of down time. The software package we are using is a disaster. It was developed (I think) in Foxpro 2.6 and just ported all the way up to VisualFoxpro 9.0. The code is still very much structural in design, reading thru files 4 and 5 times to get the data. I've attempted to 'clean up' the code, but my boss gets into my stuff and yells at me about doing that. I could address some major issues and creat objects and classes that would eliminate lots of redundant code, but why? I don't want to be a programmer and I certainly don't want to take on rewriting the entire system myself, especially when I will have to justify every coding statement to someone else. I've been doing this too long.

Financial Issues
I'm not really hurting, but I'm still experienceing the 'folly' of my year-long vacation. But was it really folly? I totally needed to get away from the old job, but I haven't changed anything with this new job....

What do I want to do when I grow up?
So now what? I did look for another type of job (project manager, business analyst), but didn't seem to get any response. I need to get motivated again and start the process. But job hunting is just like dating, you have to have a thick skin to deal with rejection. So what do I want in a job? I had a pretty cushy situation at the last job, making good money, had good benefits, but nothing was expected of me. All software packages that I had written were made obsolete by a new software package which my boss made sure I had no experience with. I got to re-engineer a billing package. God, how boring. I want a job where I can be responsible for something, where I'm needed to get some stuff done. But I don't want to be on call 24/7. Maybe I should be my own boss? My class ends tomorrow night, so now I have to act upon it.

I need a good nights' sleep!

Ice Dancing and the Olympics
I admit, I've been sucked into the Ice Dancing that they've been showing at night. I'm not big on the Olympics, I'm not big on watching sporting events non-stop, but this was something different from watching reruns of 'That '70's Show' on Fox at 11pm. What caught my eye were the beautiful colors in the costuming. The reds, and blues and oranges and feathers and glitter! Last night, I believe the Russian couple had outfits of burgundy, sky blue and gold/yellow. How beautiful!

More to come...
As things happen, I'll be posting. Thanks for taking the time to read. You're opinions are welcome but if you have to start calling me names, don't bother, I won't read them. As my Dad says 'Opinions are like a**holes, everyone has one.'