Winter...Finally!

Finally the weather is 'normal' for February. Not that I'm complaining too much, I enjoy 60 degree weather. But with a dose of cold air, you can appreciate the spring weather so much more.

Closure
I got some information this weekend that I just couldn't get over. I've finally digested the info and I realize I wasn't a complete B*tch. (OK, so maybe 85%, but not complete). A few years back, I was in a 'friendship' with a woman who lived close to me. We would meet each other in the afternoon and take a 3-mile walk, we would go to each others house for dinner, just hang out. We talked about everything, disappointments in life, good times in life, deepest secrets. This guy she had a crush on got dumped by his girlfriend and my friend took over. He would cry on her shoulder, talk to her constantly, call her all the time. He took over her life, became the central point in her life. They weren't even dating or sleeping together! So I realized that as long as those 2 were 'together', I would be a second-class citizen. I'd never get invited to hikes or parties they'd have, so I took my toys and went home. She eventually got a job and bought a house on the other side of town and I haven't spoken to her in quite a while. So anyway, based on some information that I gleaned, I finally realized why what happened did happen. I would have been a critical eye to her 'relationship' and she didn't need or want a critical eye. She knew she was going to get hurt and that he'd never date her, but she 'was in love' so went for it. (She did get hurt, the first guy probably met someone new and there was another boytoy that moved to California and in the process met a new squeeze. )

I have a 'possessiveness' with my friends, I guess. I have lots of friends, not too many close friends. When they inevitabley start dating someone else, I admit, my feelings get a bit hurt. BUT, if the guy is good to them, and it's a healthy relationship, I'm happy for them. If they are in a bad situation, setting themselves up to be used, I can't be so happy. Whenever a woman starts a new relationship, they become scarce for about 6 months. Then after 6 months, they start reaching out to their old friends (or not). I seem to go thru this about every 2 years, my close girlfriend meets someone and I don't see her anymore. It's a fact of life, not a very pretty one, but a fact. I am possibly like this, but it's been so long since I've been the one to start dating someone, I don't remember.

More to come...
As things happen, I'll be posting. Thanks for taking the time to read. You're opinions are welcome but if you have to start calling me names, don't bother, I won't read them. As my Dad says 'Opinions are like a**holes, everyone has one.'